So i have no clue what i'm doing up this late but since I AM.......lets see...what can i write.....my life is borriiiinnngg!!!!like crazy!!! SO I NEED THINGS TO FIND SOMETHING TO DO....

MY LIFE IS SO CONFUSING I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO.............................................            ALL I CAN EVER THINK ABOUT IS ONLY JUST US TWO........

MY FEELINGS ARE GETTING WEIRD....AND HARDER TO EXPLAIN....                                                   I'M BEGINNING TO THINK I'M STARTING TO GO INSANE..  

IT FIRST BEGINS WITH MY BODY AND THEN MOVES TO MY BRAIN......                                            MY BODY GETS ALL MOTIONLESS...MY LIMBS START GETTING NUMB.....AND I CAN'T EVEN TALK MY TONGUE FEELS LIKE GUM.....

I START CHEWING ...HOPING TO BURST THAT BUBBLE....BUT AS IT TURNS OUT... EVERYTHING FALLS AND CRUMBLES....SO STILL Y DO I ONLY MUMBLE?

THOSE SACRED WORDS I WANT TO SPEAK....I CAN ONLY THINK OF....SCARED OF THE TRUTH....SCARED OF REJECTION.....WHEN ALL I EVER WANTED IN RETURN WAS THE LOVE OF ONES AFFECTION .......///

I START TO THINK I'M ONLY DREAMING HOPING TO SOON AWAKE...BUT TOO BAD MY DAY IS ALREADY SET ONLY LINKED TO FATE.........

SO WHAT DO I DO TO WAKE AND ESCAPE THIS HORRIBLE NIGHTMARE....CAUSE I'M TRYING TO RUN...BUT FRIGHT HAS GOT ME SPUN AND TANGLED IN IT'S WEB.........

NO WHERE TO GO ...BUT ONLY TO STARE...LOOKING AT MY MESS...IN ALL OF MY THOUGHTS ....HOPING FOR SUCH EVEN A LITTLE BIT OF REMORSE.....

TOO BAD NOTHING COMES AND AND I'M TRAPPED WITH ALL MY FEARS...LOOKING BACK OVER TO ALL OF THOSE YEARS.....

IT IS THEN THAT I REALIZE WHAT IT IS I MUST DO.... AND IT ALL STARTS WITH LETTING GO OF JUST YOU..........

SEE...SOMETHING TO CLEAR BOREDOM ALWAYS HELPS WITH CREATIVITY....LOL 

OK......SO IT HAS BEEN A WHILE SINCE I WAS SUPPOSE TO POST THIS ONE UP.........BUT I CAN NOT ESCAPE THE INEVITABLE AS YOU CAN SEE....BUT THE INEVITABLE CAN ESCAPE ME.......DIFFICULT TO UNDERSTAND?....WELL OF COURSE I AM USUALLY THAT WAY...BUT NOW LETS SEE......I CAN GO ABOUT THIS ONE IN TWO (2) WAYS.....ONE.1.I CAN WRITE IT........TWO.2.I CAN DO A POEM........SO WHICH DO I DO...WELL SINCE I CAN NOT DECIDE WHY DON'T YOU?......OH WHAT'S THAT BOTH OK................

SO FIRST THE BORING PART THE WRITING.........

NOW THERE ARE TWO THINGS ON WHICH THIS WORLD BALANCES ON.....LIFE AND THE OTHER BEING DEATH............LIFE BEING THE MOST PRECIOUS....AND DEATH BEING THE MOST PRECARIOUS..... ...SOME PEOPLE WELCOME DEATH.....AND OTHERS REFUSE IT....WHY DUE TO MANY REASONS.......SOME REFUSE TO ACKNOWLEDGE THE FACT THAT IT HAPPENS TO MOST PEOPLE.....IT CAN HIT ADULTS KIDS AND BABIES....AND ANYONE ELSE IT DECIDES...........NOW DO I ACCEPT IT....IT DEPENDS ON MY SITUATION......BUT AS OF NOW NO...I WILL NOT ACCEPT ANY PART OF IT.....IT STILL CONTINUES AROUND ME AND FUNCTIONS NORMALLY AS IT WOULD......IT DOES SCOLD ME IN THE FACT THAT I AM IN TOUCHABLE...BUT LETS ME KNOW THAT IT STILL EFFECTS MANY OTHERS AND CAN GET THOSE I HOLD DEAR TO ME ........SO IT MOCKS AND TAUNTS ME.....SOME PEOPLE THAT MAY SEEM UNFORTUNATE AND GET INTO HORRIBLE ACCIDENTS...AND YET STILL MANAGE TO LIVE.....NOTICE WHAT KEEPS THEM ALIVE?......IT IS BECAUSE THEY REFUSE TO ACKNOWLEDGE IT EVEN WHEN HE CONFRONTS THEM.....KNOWING HE IS THERE AND FEELING HIM HOVERING OVER THEM....STILL THEY REFUSE BECAUSE THAT IS THEIR WILL POWER TO LIVE AND CONTINUE THROUGH THEIR COURSE OF LIFE THROUGH THE LIVING........SO THEY ARE ABLE TO OVERPOWER AND OVERCOME DEATH.!!!!!!!!

THERE ARE NOT MANY PEOPLE LIKE THIS ANY MORE, MOST PEOPLE ARE STARTING TO GIVE UP.....NO LONGER DO THEY WISH TO HOLD ON TO THE LIVING......BUT LIVE AMONGST THE DEAD.......

I GUESS SOMETIMES IT IS EASIER TO GIVE UP.....THAN OPPOSED TO FIGHTING...BUT STILL NOT ALL PEOPLE DESERVE THEIR LIVES TO BE TAKEN FROM THEM, WAIT NO ONE DESERVES IT ....BUT YET IT STILL OCCURS....WITH NO OTHER OPTIONS AND CHOICES....

BUT NOW LIFE ON THE OTHER HAND IS COMPLETELY OPPOSITE.....TREASURED AND MOSTLY VALUED BY ALL................................SO ONE IS GIVEN AND THE OTHER IS TAKEN.......BUT BOUND BY WHICH STANDARDS???